Sunday, 18 August 2013

Hopes and Dreams ...

I have been giving a lot of thought recently to my hopes and dreams - where I would like to be in the (near) future, and what I would like to be doing with my life.  It suddenly hit me last year - probably triggered by hitting the dreaded Big Four Oh - that certain aspects of my life were not bringing me happiness, and that time may be running out to change that.  All I wanted was to find my own fairy door and step through it into a simpler, magical realm.

One of the main reasons for this is that, for various reasons, that most precious of things - time - seems to be about as common as hen's teeth for me right now.  I work full-time, do my self-employed hubby's accounts, my own accounts and, of course, pour everything that's left into my jewellery business.  There was a point last year when I considered dropping the jewellery altogether, but I couldn't quite bring myself to do it.  Primarily because I love doing it, and because it makes some of the other stuff bearable!

I've never been the sort of person who sets goals for myself and then beats myself up when I don't reach them, but I have been giving some thought to the things I would really like to do with/have in my life.  It goes without saying that health and the people who matter to me are more important than any of these, but here, in no particular order, is my (fairly humble) list:

  • Work full-time at the jewellery business
  • Own a dog
  • Live somewhere that is in walking distance of the countryside
  • Do all the above, and still have enough money to visit the sea every now and again 

See, when I write it down, it looks achievable, but isn't it strange how things that some people take for granted often seem quite beyond our reach?  I may never achieve these modest dreams, but perhaps many others dream of owning their own house, having full-time employment so that they can pay their bills, and having a significant other who loves them.  So, on balance, I consider myself lucky to be where I am right now.  At some point, I will have to sort out this time issue - there really is only so much of me to go round! - but my life could be so much worse.  And if I can't just pop out of my front door and go for a walk in the woods, I can reach for the wire and 'draw' myself a wood, and that's pretty cool, huh?

So what are everyone else's dreams?  I'd love to know.  It's important to have them, but equally important to be grateful for what we have, I know.  :)


Cat said...

I want to be able to make jewelry for a long time without worrying if I can buy supplies or if my wrists, hands and shoulders will fail.
I want my health issues to be bearable as long as possible.
I would like to be able and quit my day job.

Louise said...

I can relate to those, Cat - I have everything crossed that you stay healthy enough to do this forever! x

Anonymous said...

Firstly just wanted to say, please don't ever give up making the beautiful pieces you make, you have a gift of being able to bring a little magic into an otherwise dull world.
Me and my husband had such big dreams of living abroad, owning our own business all of which seemed within our grasp. Then when our second little boy was born everything changed. He was born with a spinal abnormality, learning disabilities, autism, it is a long list:-( but he is also totally gorgeous, has the ability to make even the most grumpy person smile! I'm now his carer and have realised life is who we love. My dreams are very different to what they were!
Peace in my overly anxious head
To carry on making jewellery and one day sell some pieces
To own a dog
For my boys to look back on their childhood and smile

Love Eileen Mole xxx

Louise said...

Aw, Eileen, thank you for your lovely words. It sounds like you have had to change your dreams so much - but how inspiring that you're still able to enjoy your life with the changes that have come. Your dreams, like most of us, I suppose, are modest and I hope you achieve them. It certainly looks like you'll achieve the last one! xxx